Alfirin moaned, and his mind once again raced elsewhere.
He was running. The man was there, the
elf he had seen.
Elves were smart! Surely he would know who it was. He followed quietly, taking to the
trees like a squirrel. He lost the strange elf, but surely he would be here somewhere. He called out, and no one answered. He begged, and pleaded even, and still there was no answer. He had little strength left, and fell to the dirt path, taking in a mouthfull of dirt and dust. It was hours later he awoke, and spat dirt from his mouth. Suddenly, though, he stopped, and listened closely. There was laughing. The voice sounded oddly familiar. And there was music too! The most beautiful he had ever heard. He lay on the ground, pulling himself silently up the path. He came to the spot, the people were off to his left, down by the creek. His mind was racing, telling him to run! To run, they would kill him surely, if they knew what he had done. But curiosity drove him, and he peered over the side, down the steep decent from the road, and to the creek. There was the elf! He was sitting beside a fire. He was singing, and dressing a wound on the head of a frail looking woman. He looked, and his eyes suddenly watered. The woman was his mother, and she was beaten badly. And, on the ground beside both of them, was a bloody shovel. It all came to him, all at once, and most everything made sense. He began to cry softly, but it was lost over the voice of the elf. He lay there, halfway in the middle of the road, and slept dreamlessly the rest of the night. He awoke the next morning, and found his mother deserted and sleeping. He came to her, and held her head in his lap. She seemed so frail, so breakable. He cried at seeing her like this. That foul man, the man he had loved as father all of his life, had done this too her, and all because of him. He cried harder. Only later would he learn that his mother had lost much in that attack. It left her paralyzed, and her lungs were forever bad, for the amount of blood that had spilt into them.... his mind raced foreward. He remembered the fell winter. She was sick, as she had always been. Only now she was white, and her fingers were shaking. She held his hand in hers, and there she told him about
Maglor, son of
Feanor. There she told him the full truth of her sin, and there he learned just how he had been soiled before birth. And, as he cried once again, his mother died, the grip of her hand lessening until it was gone, and the bright light was extinguished from her eyes.
In later years the lord
Elrond had taken him in, feeling sorry for all that had befallen him, and party for his knowledge of his parentage. He had secretly learned much, of
the old world. He learned of his father, his uncles, and his grandfather. And he had felt all the dirtier for it... suddenly the dream raced even again. And he was looking into the eyes of an elf on a
horse, and he knew the elf, though he knew not his purpose....
Alfirin dreamt no more.