Server Room Gremlin
a.k.a. Curufin the Crafty
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Yayyy, another chapter! I was pleasantly surprised to see this notification pop up this morning. :3
...Many emotions were stirred up by this one. What a coincidence that it happens to have a significant focus on Maedhros' recovery from Thangorodrim, and the lingering effects of his torment. Much like the drawing I most recently completed. 🙃 Our poor Nelyo is going through it this month!
And indeed, it seems to be a constant problem throughout Maitimo's life that he and Aranya are inconveniently separated by ill chances and strange fates. >:I
... 🥁
Me when reading about potential side effects of strong medicines: no thank u, I'd rather suffer 🫡
That part hit me for some reason. I'm like... why do I know what that kind of situation is like? From both Maitimo's perspective and that of the others? And the 'pretending' part in particular. I have some guesses, but probably better not to think too hard about it. I do seem to have some weird gaps in my memory that aren't just 'I forgot, cause it was a long time ago', but rather reject my attempts to reach them. And probably for a good reason.
It's an effective way of showing what that period of time in Maitimo's life was like. It shows it very impactfully in such a short/brief scene. 😞
And like... "two days". You can't measure the severity of your situation solely with mere length of time! You briefly died, bruh. I think they'd expect you to feel bad, and want to help you. Especially as in some ways, the torment on Thangorodrim and the recovery from it has in fact made you more sensitive and reduced your tolerance for some things ('but the shadow of his pain was in his heart...').
You're not tough all through, and you still need help sometimes, even if it's understandably hard to believe that others could possibly be able to give it, thanks to your terribly unfortunate experiences during your recovery (e.g. in that particular intruding memory quoted above).
His emotions are too great, his thoughts are in disarray, and he cannot face his dear brother long enough to be able to help him in some way. And he blames himself for not rescuing his brother, which is an additional uncomfortable weight, driving the thorns of his distress deeper.
Maedhros doesn't stop Maedhrosing... even when his body isn't working properly. 🫠
Wish I could comfort Tyelko now. It is no fault of his that he is not who Maitimo would prefer during a time like this. It is simply due to the way different people's personalities interact with each other. There are definitely many situations where Curvo would be most reassured by Tyelko's presence, rather than anyone else. And it is no failure of anyone else in the family that Curvo in Valinor usually preferred to go to Fëanor for comfort and advice. No one person can get along perfectly with everyone at all times. But Tyelko is discouraged by the fact that his presence is, more often than not, less appreciated than that of others. 🥺
...Many emotions were stirred up by this one. What a coincidence that it happens to have a significant focus on Maedhros' recovery from Thangorodrim, and the lingering effects of his torment. Much like the drawing I most recently completed. 🙃 Our poor Nelyo is going through it this month!
First of all, phew. I too am glad they were successfully able to find and administer the antidote. Everyone needs a rest now. >_< It's been a lot for all of them to handle.
...Kitten Juice!
And indeed, it seems to be a constant problem throughout Maitimo's life that he and Aranya are inconveniently separated by ill chances and strange fates. >:I
... 🥁
Same, honestly.
Me when reading about potential side effects of strong medicines: no thank u, I'd rather suffer 🫡
Oof. *screws face up*
That part hit me for some reason. I'm like... why do I know what that kind of situation is like? From both Maitimo's perspective and that of the others? And the 'pretending' part in particular. I have some guesses, but probably better not to think too hard about it. I do seem to have some weird gaps in my memory that aren't just 'I forgot, cause it was a long time ago', but rather reject my attempts to reach them. And probably for a good reason.
It's an effective way of showing what that period of time in Maitimo's life was like. It shows it very impactfully in such a short/brief scene. 😞
Ah, come on now bro. Just because you are able to, doesn't necessarily mean it's the best thing.
And like... "two days". You can't measure the severity of your situation solely with mere length of time! You briefly died, bruh. I think they'd expect you to feel bad, and want to help you. Especially as in some ways, the torment on Thangorodrim and the recovery from it has in fact made you more sensitive and reduced your tolerance for some things ('but the shadow of his pain was in his heart...').
You're not tough all through, and you still need help sometimes, even if it's understandably hard to believe that others could possibly be able to give it, thanks to your terribly unfortunate experiences during your recovery (e.g. in that particular intruding memory quoted above).
Poor soft-hearted Tyelko. 🥺
His emotions are too great, his thoughts are in disarray, and he cannot face his dear brother long enough to be able to help him in some way. And he blames himself for not rescuing his brother, which is an additional uncomfortable weight, driving the thorns of his distress deeper.
I wonder what Tyelko fears so much about telling Maitimo that he witnessed him having nightmares. Perhaps he doesn't want Maitimo to know that he was visiting him only when he was asleep/unconscious, because it might hurt his feelings or make him feel bad about things he had no control over? And maybe there is shame that he didn't stay there to help Maitimo himself after the nightmares.
*pat pats bro's overactive anxious brain*
Maedhros doesn't stop Maedhrosing... even when his body isn't working properly. 🫠
Ooh... 😬 That part's a bit uncomfortable to read, after what we've just learned about Tyelko's feelings and actions during Maitimo's recovery.
...A relatable thought process there. The truth is better for you than anything else, but it can be a hard thing to face. And indeed, regarding many things, 'there but for the grace of God go I'.
Now poor Tyelko's self-doubt is creeping in again, his feelings of being 'no-one's favourite', of not being good enough, of being hard to live with... 🥺
Oh no...
Wish I could comfort Tyelko now. It is no fault of his that he is not who Maitimo would prefer during a time like this. It is simply due to the way different people's personalities interact with each other. There are definitely many situations where Curvo would be most reassured by Tyelko's presence, rather than anyone else. And it is no failure of anyone else in the family that Curvo in Valinor usually preferred to go to Fëanor for comfort and advice. No one person can get along perfectly with everyone at all times. But Tyelko is discouraged by the fact that his presence is, more often than not, less appreciated than that of others. 🥺
Ah... and this chapter ends on a somewhat tense emotional note. From this, I suspect that things will not get easier on the emotional front, and further complications will arise. But poor Maitimo doesn't have the brain to deal with it, even if he wants to. He needs rest. *gives bro a little gentle hug*